You would think that after being thrown head first into one of my biggest fears, being alone, I would of learned to understand how God polishes our character. Nope, He will work with me until I'm fixed. lol
I have the worst anxiety when it comes to relationships just because my fears have always come true and my "sixth sense" aka Holy Spirit was always right.
Last night I got my first lesson. It was not a big deal, really, just mis-communication which in my still green brain translated to "he just doesnt care" which is sooo not true. I know he does. Its only been a little over a week! Its about getting used to the idea of me which makes total sense right? Yeah not really.
Control, God is teaching me to not have any control. Up until a few weeks ago, I had control over "Not having control" meaning that there was nothing for me to control in my life because God was taking care of it. Pretty easy, simple concept. Think again. In a woman's complicated mind, some things guys do elicit reactions that we dont even understand. Realizing that I had absolutely no control over the situation, and that it was all because he didnt answer the phone (which in my mind could of been prevented) made me nuts! You can imagine the cranking of the Nuclear Bomb ready to explode at the site of him. Poor pollito. He was completely oblivious to the fact that i was waiting for him to call so I would know if to wait for him to go to a meeting we had or if I should of gone by myself ahead. Like I said, Not a big deal. I'm just crazy, and you know what? thats ok, God loves anyway. I asked God to take my anxiety away and the best way is this. I love God. Today is a much better day.
Dear Lord:
Thank you for loving me so much, I want you to be my universe. I want you to be all I can think about. I want to serve you above all else. I love you Lord!!!!!
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Hello Ms. Monica,
You made your site simple yet elegant. I see that you would like to draw closer to God. Now is a good time! I recommend the one true God, Jehovah.
I want to help people to really get to know God, especially in these troubled times. Here is an important message for all of us from the Bible: 17 You make God tired with all your talk. "How do we tire him out?" you ask. By saying, "God loves sinners and sin alike. God loves all." And also by saying, "Judgment? God's too nice to judge." (Malachi 2:17) (Message Bible)