Scary, its scary. To put your heart out there again. To make urself vulnerable to the pain again.
This time it's different. I keep telling myself that God did this, He brought this great blessing and that He is in control. Something so simple yet so hard to live by.
I'm scared. Scared of getting my hopes up, and being hurt again. I know God is taking care of me.
God, show me what you want me to learn with this that I am feeling. Please give me Peace!
I try to seek you and I try to be in your presence and yet, I still feel so defenseless. So helpless. Lord! I need you more than anyone or anything. I know only you can give me that security I'm seeking. I know he cant give it to me because we are human and we fail. I need YOU, I need YOU. Lord, I need YOU!
Please Lord, dont part me from your presence.
God, do something about this! I dont want you to be my last resort, you are my first resort. You are in charge.
I need peace Lord. I have peace that this relationship was brought by you. Its my old self and my fears that try to come back and haunt me. I know that doesnt come from you. I need YOU Lord.
Please, please please Lord. I long to be in your presence! I want more of you father! I want this to work but only because you have made it happen.
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